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A Quick Review of Emma Swift’s Blonde on the Tracks

I think Bob Dylan is a great, raw singer, so I’m not in that camp of people who say that other people do his songs better. Actually, I think it’s rare when the covers match or surpass the original.

That being said, there are some great Dylan interpreters, aural dancers, if you will, who bring something to the original that enhances, furthers, or expounds on the master’s intent. The Byrds, Judy Collins, Bryan Ferry, and Robyn Hitchcock are a few that come to mind (in fact, Dylan covers at his live shows are always a treat, as they wind up sounding like lost Hitchcock originals).

Now, enter Emma Swift, whose new album, Blonde On the Tracks (Tiny Ghost Records), is a stunning collection of eight achingly gorgeous renditions of songs by the Bard of Duluth. Deftly produced by Patrick Sansone (Wilco multi-instrumentalist) and featuring the aforementioned Hitchcock on guitar, the album was recorded in Nashville over the course of three years–a gestation period that seems appropriate, as the album is certainly a slow burn of a listen.

With every track as strong as it is, it’s difficult to pick standouts here, but Swift’s performances of “One of Us Must Know (Sooner or Later)” and “Sad Eyed Lady of the Lowlands” had me dissolving into a glorious puddle of sadness on first listen, and are no less affecting on repeated listens.

This album is absolutely worth picking up, which you’ll need to do via Bandcamp or your favorite independent record store, as Swift is a very outspoken anti-streaming activist–which is great, we should be supporting the artists in a way that sees them getting the maximum return for their art, and if you love music, you should be buying records. Go ahead and fight me on that if you want.

Pick up Blonde On the Tracks via Bandcamp

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The Blarg No. 100: Nels Cline

Limited Engagement started in May of 2015 with an interview and reading with Bill Campana in Cynthia Black’s store, C-Mod (an episode that, along with the rest of the Ltd archive, you will soon be able to hear as a Patreon exclusive). In the nearly 4 years since that first show, Ltd has evolved from a monthly live show where I had no idea what I was doing into a nearly weekly show where I have a much better idea of what I’m doing (though, as far as the conversations go, I’m still winging it), I have a whole professional-ish setup, and I get to talk to people like today’s guest, Nels Cline.

Why am I doing some stock taking and reflection? Because it’s the 100th episode! 100!

When I started this show, I never thought it would have the legs it does. I always assumed that nobody would be interested, that no one would attend the live shows, that the whole thing would be over in a few months. I certainly didn’t think that I’d still be doing this show nearly four years later, having done 100 episodes, having once been named best podcast by PHOENIX Magazine and twice named Best Cultural Podcast by The New Times, and I really never thought I would sit for an hour and a half and record a conversation with one of my favorite guitarists from one of my favorite bands of all time.

Doing Limited Engagement has been one of the wildest things I’ve ever done, and it’s taken me on a journey down a road I never thought I’d travel (apologies for the cliche, but it works here). I am well beyond grateful to everyone who has ever listened to the show, recommended it to a friend, or reached out to me through social media because of an episode they heard or, and this was the real shocker, they connected with something I said in one of my rambling intros, where I’m way more candid than anywhere else in my life. I don’t take any of it for granted.

There’s a lot on tap this year for Limited Engagement that I’m really excited about, so stick around, subscribe if you haven’t, keep recommending the show to friends, family, acquaintances…if your pets listen to podcasts, recommend it to them (Gizmo and SuSu make frequent appearances).

As I mentioned up at the top, my guest for this week’s episode is the absolutely brilliant and incomparable Nels Cline. Nels is perhaps best known as a member of Wilco for the past 15 years but beyond that, he’s a legendary guitarist who flows effortlessly between rock and jazz and every degree across the spectrum. He’s played with Mike Watt, The Geraldine Fibbers, Thurston Moore, Yuka Honda, Julian Lage, and so many more. His latest album, released on Blue Note under The Nels Cline 4, is Currents, Constellations, and it’s freaking amazing. The Nels Cline 4 are currently on a western U.S. tour, and if you have the opportunity to see them, you absolutely should.

Listen to LE 100 – Nels Cline

Best,
Jared

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The Blarg No. 99: Allyson Bills

Something that I’ve talked a lot about on various podcasts lately, is social consciousness. How can that not be at the forefront of anyone who is maintaining even a cursory awareness of the news? My concern, though, comes less with the public social consciousness than my own. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that, as an empathetic species, humans are broken and failed as a whole. There are pockets and exceptions, but generally speaking, people are pretty awful to each other. The notion of making strides to improve inclusivity in society as a whole is far too daunting, and seems impossible if we don’t first look at ourselves and resolve our own personal issues, biases, and subconscious (or conscious) prejudices. The point has been painfully driven home for me lately that I have to fix myself before I can even begin to look at anyone else.

With that in mind, I braved the First Friday crowd on Roosevelt row and went to check out the iNDIEFILMFEST. Specifically, I went over to FilmBar to see Pita Juarez and Matty Steinkamp’s documentary, You Racist, Sexist, Bigot. A film to raise consciousness, it says, and I think it does that successfully. It doesn’t seek to provide any answers, but rather allow people to share their stories, their experiences, to serve as a conversation starter, and cause the viewer to reflect inwardly—at least that’s my impression. Anyway, I thought the film was great, and you should check it out. Google “You Racist, Sexist, Bigot.” It’s the first thing that comes up. It’s making the festival circuit and playing in colleges around the country, so if you’re listening outside of Phoenix, it might be headed your way.

My guest on the show this week is Allyson Bills. Allyson is a writer for YabYum Music + Arts, where you can read her column, Social Savvy, which is all about how creatives in the arts community navigate the mess that is social media in order to promote their work. Allyson is also the co-creator of the Scooter Litter Instagram account documenting the scooters left around all over the place by various jerks.

Best,
Jared

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The Blarg No. 97: Best Music of 2018

First off, I want to thank everyone for their responses to last week’s Blarg, or the excerpt of it that was included in the Hoot n Waddle Dispatch. I’m fine, or at least I will be. The whole point of taking the break is to avoid the darkness. So this’ll be the last Limited Engagement of 2018, and I’ll be taking the first several weeks of 2019 off to regroup and put together a more workable schedule. Thank you for all the support. The show’s not going anywhere.

Now, let’s get into this episode, which is the annual best of music episode. This time around, I talked to Ashley Naftule (on for his third appearance!), and had a blast. Ashley is always a lot of fun to talk to, and while there’s some crossover in the sort of music we listen to, there were no repeats between us, so it made for a very lively conversation. Major thanks to Ashley, who was still getting over a cold, for sitting down and doing this show. For those who may not know, Ashley is a writer, performer, and he does a lot of great work with Space 55, so please check all that out.

Since I’m posting the lists, I’ll put the links to the show here, so you don’t have to scroll all the way to the bottom, and I’ll also say thank you to everyone who’s listened to this show. 2018 was a big year, and 2019 is going to be even bigger. As they say, watch this space.

To listen to LE 97 – Best Music of 2018 with Ashley Naftule:
(Apple Podcasts | Stitcher | Spotify | Website)

I’m going to post Ashley’s list first, and then my overall list, which ranks everything.

Ashley’s list:

1. Fucked Up “Dose Your Dreams”

2. Beach House “7”

3. Deafheaven “Ordinary Corrupt Human Love”

4. YOB “Our Raw Heart”

5. Earl Sweatshirt “Some Rap Songs”

6. Rolo Tomassi “Time Will Die and Love Will Bury It”

7. SOPHIE “OIL OF EVERY PEARL’S UN-INSIDES”

8. BODEGA “Endless Scroll”

9. Iceage “Beyondless”

10. JPEGMAFIA “Veteran”

Honorable Mentions (i.e. Albums that reeeallly came close to cracking the top ten):

Advance Base “Animal Companionship”
American Pleasure Club “A Whole Fucking Lifetime Of This”
Arctic Monkeys “Tranquility Base Hotel & Casino”
Boygenius “s/t EP”
Lucy Dacus “Historian”
Jean Grae/Quelle Chris “Everything’s Fine”
Let’s Eat Grandma “I’m All Ears”
Makaya McCraven “Universal Beings”
Jeff Rosenstock “POST”
Sylvaine “Atoms Aligned, Coming Undone”
Unreqvited “Mosaic I: l’amour et l’ardeur”
Young Fathers “Cocoa Sugar”
Yves Tumor “Safe in the Hands of Love”

My list (Ranking Out of 10):

  1. Soccer Mommy – Clean 9.8/10
  2. The Good, The Bad & The Queen – Merrie Land 9.7/10
  3. Cat Power – Wanderer 9.6/10
  4. The Beths – Future Me Hates Me 9.5/10
  5. Elvis Costello & The Imposters – Look Now 9.4/10
  6. Neko Case – Hell-On 9.3/10
  7. Snail mail – Lush 9.2/10
  8. Jeff Tweedy – Carm 9.1/10
  9. The Nels Cline 4 – Currents, Constellations 9/10
  10. Marianne Faithfull – Negative Capability 8.95/10
  11. The Love Language – Baby Grand 8.9/10
  12. John Grant – Love Is Magic 8.85/10
  13. Ohmme – Parts 8.8/10
  14. L.A. Salami – The City of Bootmakers 8.75/10
  15. Calexico – The Thread That Keeps Us 8.7/10
  16. Wild Pink – Yolk In the Fur 8.65/10
  17. The Breeders – All Nerve 8.6/10
  18. Laura Viers – The Lookout 8.55/10
  19. Neil & Liam Finn – Lightsleeper 8.5/10
  20. Stephen Malkmus and the Jicks – Sparkle Hard 8.45/10
  21. Cowboy Junkies – All That Reckoning 8.4/10
  22. Parquet Courts – Wide Awake 8.35/10
  23. Rolling Blackouts Coastal Fever – Hope Downs 8.3/10
  24. Damien Jurado – The Horizon Just Laughed 8.25/10
  25. Nap Eyes – I’m Bad Now 8.2/10
  26. Gorillaz – The Now Now 8.15/10
  27. Sam Phillips – World On Sticks 8.1/10
  28. Cut Worms – Hollow Ground 8/10
  29. First Aid Kit – Ruins 7.95/10
  30. Lord Huron – Vide Noir 7.9/10
  31. Amen Dunes – Freedom 7.85/10
  32. Valley Queen – Supergiant 7.8/10
  33. La Luz – Floating Features 7.75/10
  34. Kurt Vile – Bottle it In 7.7/10
  35. Wye Oak – The Louder I Call, The Faster it Runs 7.65/10
  36. Tony Molina – Kill the Lights 7.6/10
  37. Grant-Lee Phillips – Widdershins 7.55/10
  38. The Essex Green – Hardly Electronic 7.5/10
  39. The Milk Carton Kids – All the Things I Did and All the Things That I Didn’t Do 7.45/10
  40. The Innocence Mission – Sun On the Square 7.4/10
  41. J Mascis – Elastic Days 7.35/10
  42. Totally Mild – Her 7.3/10
  43. Kyle Craft – Full Circle Nightmare 7.25/10
  44. Tomberlin – At Weddings 7.2/10
  45. Caroline Rose – Loner 7.15/10
  46. The Jayhawks – Back Roads and Abandoned Motels 7.1/10
  47. Lanegan/Garwood – With Animals 7/10
  48. Field Music – Open Here 6.95/10
  49. Traceyanne & Danny 6.9/10
  50. Phosphorescent – c’est la vie 6.85/10
  51. Low – Double Negative 6.8/10
  52. They Might Be Giants – I Like Fun 6.75/10
  53. The Sidekicks – Happiness Hours 6.7/10
  54. Marc Ribot – Songs of Resistance 6.65/10
  55. The Blood Feud Family Singers – Adversary 6.6/10
  56. David Byrne – American Utopia 6.55/10
  57. Titus Andronicus – A Productive Cough 6.5/10
  58. Loma 6.45/10
  59. Marissa Nadler – For My Crimes 6.4/10
  60. Yo La Tengo – There’s a Riot Going On 6.35/10
  61. The Invisible Teal – Debt and Quandaries 6.3/10
  62. Josh Rouse – Love in the Modern Age 6.25/10

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The Blarg No. 94: Ed Masley

There are honestly few things I enjoy more than talking about music—which is more than likely the reason I’m starting yet another podcast, Album Infinitum, which is all about music. It’s close, but I think I may almost enjoy discussing music more than listening to music. It’s not quite there, but it’s close. The reason is that I get to share all of that excitement about something I love that is internalized when listening in solitude. Also, there’s something about having a conversation with another music lover about an artist or album or particular song that you’re both excited about— something that you don’t get from anything else. Casual music listeners don’t understand; they don’t share the passion.

I suppose there’s a similar correlation to any kind of media—film, television, but I feel like there’s a special bond between music appreciators. Especially if there’s a shared experience—a particular concert, for example. This happens to me more and more the longer I do Limited Engagement. Maybe that’s a combination of the kind of music I listen to and the people I interview. On two separate occasions over the last few weeks, I’ve brought up an Elvis Costello concert I went to back in 2010, and had the person across the desk from me say they were at the same show. The first occasion was while talking to Marc Oxborrow (The Haymarket Squares, The Blood Feud Family Singers) about Fountains of Wayne. The other occasion was while talking to this week’s guest, Ed Masley. PLUS, as it happens, when I was Googling to see what the date was for that show, I found that a previous LE guest, Jason Woodbury, was also at that show, because I stumbled on his review in The New Times.

It’s a small world.

Speaking of Elvis Costello, which happens a lot on LE—probably on account of the big Brutal Youth poster hanging on the wall behind me in the office where I record everything (if you’re curious, the other things on that wall in the corner are a signed Glenn Tilbrook poster from The Incomplete Glenn Tilbrook Tour, and a framed ticket and liner notes for Folker signed by Paul Westerberg)—I’ve been wanting to talk to Ed Masley ever since being involved in a Twitter thread started by friend, prior LE guest, and What the Fork? co-host, Jason Keil, about EC’s music. I had read articles by Ed here and there and enjoyed his writing (it’s hard to be a music connoisseur in Phoenix without reading Ed’s work), but it was his Costello knowledge that put things over the top. I’m glad he was willing to be on the show, it was a blast talking to him.

Ed Masley is the Pop Music Critic for The Arizona Republic, as well as a musician and songwriter who’s bands include The Frampton Brothers and The Breakup Society. With so much love for music, the conversation rarely stays on track, but it’s a lot of fun for any musicphile.

Best,

Jared

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The Blarg No. 91: Todd Hoover

Meanwhile, in Arizona, we still have no fucking idea who our next senator is. In case it wasn’t abundantly clear, I’m pulling for Kyrsten Sinema. I have my problems with her record, but I believe the alternative to be far worse. As of this writing, Sinema currently holds the lead with nearly 50 percent of the vote. Let’s hope things stay that way.

We also managed to flip The House, so at the very least, there’s at least a check if not necessarily a balance. We’ll have to wait and see what happens at this point. I’m cautious. Note that I’m not cautiously optimistic. I don’t think we’re anywhere near optimism yet, but I am a pessimist and a cynic, so you know, take that for what it’s worth.

If you’re a writer in Arizona, and you’re reading this on Monday, you might be interested in this contest Hoot n Waddle has going on in partnership with the Virginia G. Piper Center for Creative Writing. Our friends at Piper have given HnW two spots at Andrea Scarpino’s Poetry of the Body workshop, which takes place on Saturday, 11/17 at 10 am, and the reason they’ve done this is because the workshop takes place right before our event to re-launch Andrea’s book Once Upon Wing Lake as a Hoot n Waddle title (it was originally published last year by Four Chambers Press). The event is a live Limited Engagement—the first live show I’ve done in over 18 months—and the guests will be Andrea and writer Matt Bell. All you have to do for a chance to win one of the workshop spots is share our Facebook event and tag Hoot n Waddle in your post. We’ll pick two names at random and message the winners privately.

I had a really interesting conversation with Todd Hoover (who records and releases music under the name The Invisible Teal). He was once a very religious person who went so far as to attend seminary school, but has since denounced religion in the wake of some personal events and self-realizations. His story is fascinating, and his music is a complex, eclectic delight. Todd’s latest album is called Debt and Quandaries, and he plays two tracks from it at the end of the show (“Line of Dots” and “Willey Siegel”). You can check out The Invisible Teal on Bandcamp.

Best,
Jared

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The Blarg No. 90: The Blood Feud Family Singers

It’s in the mail, that green envelope that holds all my hope for knocking the juggernaut of horror off of its current path of destruction—sidelining it for just a little while so I can catch my breath. Who knows what kind of impact my singular vote will have? All I can do is fervently hope that enough people have a similar dissatisfaction with the current direction of things—whether that’s the recent additions to the Supreme Court, the withdrawal from the Paris agreement, the ban on transgender military service, or any number of other politically, socially, and scientifically regressive policy decisions—that they vote accordingly.

I love the convenience of early voting, but I feel a little bit robbed of the voting experience this time. This is probably the most important election of my roughly twenty years of voting eligibility, or at least it feels that way, and a part of me wishes that I had the experience of waiting in line, standing in a booth, and turning in my ballot in-person.

I’m also a little bit paranoid. With all of the reporting on election tampering of late, I have a desire to follow my envelope on its journey from mailbox to tabulation—just to make sure everything gets counted correctly. It’s all out of my hands, though, and all I can do now is wait and watch the returns.

Anyway, on to this week’s show:

The Blood Feud Family Singers started out when The Haymarket Squares would sit in on Darryl Scherrer’s songs, not entirely unlike Linda Ronstadt and the Eagles. From there, Scherrer and the Square’s Marc Oxborrow thought it would be a great idea to put a band together (they explain it much better in the interview). The band has one album out, No Moon, and they will release their new album, Adversary, on Sunday, November 11th, with an album release show at Last Exit Live at 7:30 pm.

On this, the 90th Limited Engagement, Marc Oxborrow and Darryl Scherrer discuss everything from the formation of The Blood Feud Family Singers, to songwriting, to Darryl taking a pizza order from Tom Waits. Be sure to check out their new album, Adversary, and stick around until the end of the show to hear a track from the album.

Best.

Jared Duran

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LE 89: Tyler Button

Oy, okay, what do I want to talk about this time?

Well, first of all, make sure you vote. At least in Arizona, you only have a couple more days to get your early ballot in the mail, so if you’re going to do that, get it done. Otherwise, go to the polls. Vote, and vote informed. Research the propositions. Research the judges. Look at who is running for the school board positions. These local things matter, and they matter a whole fucking lot.

Other than that, it’s just been really crazy busy. We had a really good turnout for the launch of David Chorlton’s Reading T. S. Eliot to a Bird (which you can get here). I’m about to go into editing a new podcast called Album Infinitum, which is a music podcast focusing on one artist, one album at a time. The first artist is Aimee Mann, and the guests I had on to discuss the albums are fantastic, so look forward to that in early November.

Oh, also, I had a mild panic attack the other day. They’re happening more frequently. And my anxiety ebbs and flows, but never seems to truly subside. I can’t relax. It’s a real problem.

I’ve just got too much stuff running around my head all the time, and I’m not sleeping well. I started taking melatonin to see if that helps.

Tyler Button founded Tapestry Comics in 2015 with the aim of “creat[ing] the most exciting and interesting books retelling the greatest tales from our past.” On this edition of Limited Engagement, Button discusses turning one of his passions into a business, working with comic book artists, being a full time dad, and we have a deep philosophical discussion about what it takes to be a successful creative in the social media age as well as what it takes to keep that alive and viable in Phoenix.

Best,
Jared

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Ooh—one other thing. We’ll be back next week, because I have a conversation with The Blood Feud Family Singers that needs to go up, which means we may be going weekly. Stay tuned.

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The Blarg No. 87: Morgxn

Full disclosure, I’m writing this on a rainy Sunday night, watching Battlestar Galactica, so if things get dark, well…

Anyway, the annual “Best of Phoenix” edition of The New Times came out this past week, and Limited Engagement was again named Best Cultural Podcast. It’s the second year in a row, and it’s really fantastic. It’s great promotion, it’s great validation from peers in the community, and it means we’re doing something right. If anyone recalls reading my musings on this last year, however, I couldn’t just accept the positivity of the award, or accept that this was, well, a form of acceptance. I’ve been out on the fringes for so long that, to borrow from Groucho Marx, I wouldn’t want to be in a club that would have me as a member.

I was talking to the creator of Tapestry Comics, Tyler Button, for an upcoming edition of LE, and the phrase “impostor syndrome” came up in discussion. I think this is something I’ve suffered from for a long time. I’ve been knocking at the door of the artistic establishment for so long that when the door is opened, I hesitate to go in. I’m doing nothing but work I’m proud of, but if anyone else recognizes it as something with merit, my initial impulse is to disbelieve them. It’s impossible for me to feel that I belong. Maybe that’s good. Maybe that serves to forestall complacency and foster continued grown and experimentation. It’s sure as shit fucking exhausting, though.

I’m working on just taking the praise, affirmation, awards, what have you, at face value. It’s a long road. In all seriousness, though, an immense thank you to the staff of The New Times.

A piece of business I want to get out of the way: on the last LE, I mentioned that we’d changed hosting providers for all Hoot n Waddle podcasts. It saved us a little bit of money, and it allowed me to do what I’ve been wanting to for a while, which is manage all of our podcasts under one account. Simultaneously, we’ve begun in earnest to promote our Patreon account as a way to support Hoot n Waddle in the long term. We have a lot of expenses related to both the podcasts and our publishing endeavors, and the monthly support model is something that will help us out immensely. Since these two things coincided, and I needed to change out all of the files on our website, I made the decision to make the first year of LE available to Patreon supporters only. At this point, that’s only 11 of the now 87 episodes of the podcast (it would be 12 if it weren’t for the infamous “Lost Episode”), and I honestly think that’s fair. What this means is that, going forward, episodes will be available for two years prior to being available only for patrons at the $5/month level. These episodes are no longer available on the website, and over the next month, they will be removed from podcast providers as well. If you would like to voice a dissenting opinion, you’re welcome to do so by email or social media.

On this edition of Limited Engagement, musician and songwriter Morgxn discusses redefining masculinity, starting out in Nashville, the influence the loss of his father had over the making of his new album, Vital, and how he came to record a cover of The Cure classic, “Boys Don’t Cry”

Best,
Jared

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LE 86: Matthew Slusser

Freaking the fuck out.

Guys, what do you do? I realize that’s an odd start out of the gate with no context, but right now, I feel like an odd start out of the gate with no context. What am I talking about? I don’t even really know.

If you’ve been following along on this journey—fuck that. I hate things being described as journeys, but I also equally hate people describing something as a path or a road, because beyond being cliche, it all sounds so planned and linear. Life is nothing if not not linear. I mean, sure, time moves in one direction—forward, but the distance traveled between A and B is never a straightforward thing. At least not in my experience. A is the starting point and B is the end point, but from A there is often a misstep backwards into a steaming shit-pile of Z, then rolling down a steep embankment through thistles to come to a dazed and moaning stop in F, then at last certain you’ve found a shortcut to B but winding up stuck for ten years in H… you get the idea.

I don’t like roller coasters—never have—but it feels like I got on one a few years ago that’s been on a steady climb ever since, and now I’m just kind of trying not to look for the crest and inevitable free fall. It can’t be far off. Except that it can be, and it might never be this terrifying drop I’m anticipating—maybe things will just level off, even out, and everything will be great. That’s not the way I function, though. I wish it were, but it’s not. I don’t have that practiced, self-assured way of thinking. As soon as things start to go well, I go straight to disaster prep mode. I guess you could say I’m a negativity prepper.

So back to the opening question, what do you do? How do you cope? How do you keep yourself from spiraling into an overwhelming pit of depression and anxiety that is not only self-destructive, but makes you difficult for other people to deal with as well?

As I write this, we, Janell and I, are just two days out from the launch party for our first book from Hoot n Waddle, Chris Danowski’s DOGSEAR. I should be filled with joy and a sense of accomplishment—this is exactly the kind of thing that I wanted to be doing with my life—but all I can do is focus on the “what if.” What if no one shows up? What if no one buys the book? What if I just fuck the whole thing up in some grand and fiery way?

I’ve begun having panic attacks. That’s new. I’ve always had problems with anxiety, but it was all in my head. Now, there are these physical manifestations. My breathing gets sharp and shallow, I get a little light headed, I begin to feel like I need to scream, but can’t. I’m sort of going through a little of that now. I need to get grounded and enjoy all of this in the moment—we’re publishing a fucking book! That’s freaking amazing! I don’t know how to be happy about it, though.

The launch is this Saturday. I’m writing this Thursday night so that I don’t have to stress about writing The Blarg and posting the new Limited Engagement and updating all the various things that need to be updated on top of the launch. I guess you’ll have to wait to hear about how I handled the launch and everything after until the next Blarg.

On this edition of Limited Engagement, Matthew Slusser discusses podcasting, Henry Rollins, the end of his band Phantom Party, and much more. Be sure to check out his podcast, Getting Stoked.

Best,
Jared

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